It's just there are too many things to do, studying above all, and I just. Can't. Bring myself. To do it.
(But being fine is something to be grateful for of course.)
I feel dingy and tired and keep pressing my cold fingertips onto the blue veins beneath my eyes to stay awake. I hope things'll be better soon; in the meantime I'll probably be staying offline for a while. Just to wrap my brain around my history books.